28/05/04
ok..tis is the most sickening dae of my life.
not going to elaborate more. coz it is jux damn sickening n f**king.
jux wanna sae tt ..i'm damn pissed wif the sch . the sys .n napfa.
my hard work jux dun pay off. whY WORK?
damn bastard. i'm nt going to retk physical fitness .
i'm damn pissed. tt's my maximum ..i tried.
even wif training .everytime will be THE SAME.
tt's my body. i understand it more den anyone do.
so f**k off .stupid sch.
i'm SICK n TIRED of tis ..SCH.
n i regret my sudden outburst todae. which giv elsa such a big shock
n oso. jiemin kanna tio chao-ed by me. thanks n sorry
cant imagine it. hav to face tt SCH tomolo?!?!
sth to sae. w/o excellent 'A' results..even wif 100% of the sch cohort getting GOLD ..oso wun improve the sch ranking. dun be so ambitious. tis is jux adding more stress on us.
dreamt @ 12:36 AM
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25/05/04
i'm sad ..super sad..chao dulan now.. hate to be stuck in tis shit.. i hate my life!!! arghhhhh...i'm super moody..ya rite jing.. u sae cut hair will change fortune rite...i tink my luck change frm bad to worse.. sighhh!!! how how howwww!?!?! ppl dun ask me wat happen ..coz it is a super dumb n long story..
hu can be ard for me..no one..i'm used to dealing wif pros myself..haiz..but i'm sick n tired of such life..
dreamt @ 8:58 PM
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23/05/04
yday can be considered as the most ..tmd..bastard..bloody hell of my life.
alot ppl commented on my hair..dots..ok fine..giv comments nvm..but one of them say i look like sadako...hello i dun mind de lor..IF u suan me @ the most appropriate time..but the pro is .. yday the moment i step into mj..i'm cursed!
went to lib find jing they all..tt asshole bloody shit orh sai sae me..giv me sacarstic remarks...fine! his authority bigger den me...nth to sae..i'm jux suay!yday go cut my hair for the second time...@ there...ya look ok..cum back hm..NOPE ..nt ok...chao bastard dao...nv in my life..i cut n cut my hair for 2 consecutive days..
yday..i tell my junior nt to cum near me..hello.i mean it. nt joking..u dare cum suan me..the whole pasir ris region will hear my roar. upon tinking back NOW. i noe i'm harsh lar..cannot blame.. i'm damn super pissed lor. hu to blame.?! MP!!
but..regardless of all tis..i managed to find sth amusing ..ha.. one of my junior's comment!
yday he saw me..he use his ever funny sehx to 'diao' me again..to sae frankly..if i'm nt in a foul mood yday..i will burst out laffing.. but yday i;m super senstitive..i sae him' go away lar..dun look..!' ..haha..den he sae.. in chi 'i dun dare tok to u ..u always scold me de'. i'm like.?!?!?! sighz. not on purpose one lar. can sae tt ..he is the most..mei you temper..n funny ppl in CO le...tt is our gong gong student conductor..gd job done yday! haha
today my mood still nt gd. i tink my mood will nv be gd wif my hair like tt..sighz..i jux dun like it...the only gd thingy tt i see in my hair is..it is v v v v qing. v light. dunno lar. pissed out.
dreamt @ 6:12 PM
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22/05/04
ok. i dun like my hair now. i tink it sux. n mp u watch out. bye.
dreamt @ 8:37 PM
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hmmm..gonna go sch in a few mins..my mood now is...err ...abit bu she de lar..hahaha..today is last dae of CO...gonna step down i tink today baz..sianz no tarepanda...*secret code of PARTY* hahaha...hope hav one lar...wei lao us abit..i tink abit ben too lar...last wk co bonding..now yr 2 leaving..shld not bond better la..now abit weird..haha..~! yaya..jing is going to sae i m flirt again..hahha ...
ok jing..let me ans ur qns..hahha...'if tt person u like ..like u too...but u jux dunno abt it..soo r u expect to be in the waiting list?'
funni qns..if u dunno...will u in the 1st place care abt it? UNLESS...he is a v gd buddy of urs or wat...or close fren...den mayb u can sense dao...mayb he will treat u gd or sth like tt...or gt hint u...etc etc...jux like someone told me b4...'emotions cant hide'.. u can agar c or sense dao de...hahaha..right?
yday..sms chat wif jiemin..hahaha...finally discover tt..she is 'Miss Worry-too-much'...hahhaa ...den i'm Miss gong..hahaha..we r best of frenz..lol!! ya..hope u r realli alright..gt ani troubles of wat...feel free to cum chao me..coz i will do tt oftenly..!!!lol
ohhh yaa...i cut my hair le...ppl in my msn contact list will be able to noe tt..hahaha..coz my nick is soooo obvious~ dunno la..sometimes tink alright..sometimes tink it sux..dunno la...weird me...weird owner...weirdo hair...~but i can cfm is...i hav cut off my burden le!! hehe.. todae gonna pei jing n ml go cut hair too...mayb i siao siao go try cut my fringe too..lolx
hahaha..yday i'm obsessed wif cong qing song...hahaha...'you yi zong cong dong...xiang jin jin yu ni xiang shou..' ...tt is nt a great song..but damn funny..mk me laff like mad!!!
ok..today i'm mad abt tao zhe de song...'liu sha'...super duper duper duper nice!!! if my com can comment abt tt song..hahhaa..he will sae..'i'm turning bonker...tt stupid gal is repeating n replaying tt song ...again again n again!!' ...ok..i'm chao lame...siao todae...bye gtg le! =P
dreamt @ 9:51 AM
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20/05/04
hmmm ...i tink i'm damn horrible ...can type out such a longgggg entry~ hahaha..remind me of wat mr chua said today..'ya leemei..ur essay is long-winded' ..ahahhaa!!!!
rmb someone told me tis ..
relationship = drug.
once u get addicted u can never let it go.. even if u have , u will still have bad record... like criminals having marks on their IC .
1 word of advice .. never try if u never wanted to commit.
hmm...i agree lar..it's addictive..all those hu hav a taste b4..will wan to hav another try..n all those hu dun hav b4..will be tempted to try too..haha..but the pro is..i repeat again..dun becoz of tt ..den engaged into a r/s ...nt worth it..n v bad to do tt..!! it hurt the other party...pls mk sure tt u realli love or like someone ...b4 engaging into a BGR can? aiyo..rmb i gt sae b4..i dun agree to wat u sae..ya ..i'm typing out my thots now..ok dun wanna sae too much..haha..coz it will sound soo harsh..*hey boy..tis is comment is for u.!..*
qns of the day..hahaa..it's abt lao niu chi neng cao one...hahaha!! ppl wat u all tink abt lao shao pei?~ for a couple...the gal is much older den the boy? hahaha...jing will be laffing out like mad..too bad lar..tis qns is surrounding me ..haha..those j1 call me lao niu...~ bleah..nt true! haha..n oso...recently i read abt tis in a chi novel...haha..feel free to flood my taggy..quite dull reecently..but i noe min will help me flood it de...lolz~
dreamt @ 8:39 PM
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ermmm!~! hahaha...min is back~ no wonder sam is soooo happy today!! haha...n everybody is suaning him during hist lect coz of tis...haha...weihao is the one hu sae it out..haha..min go box him! haha..super damn happy today...coz 1stly min is back..*i'm repeating myself again...* 2ndly..mr chua is back to his own healthy n cheerful mood *althot tt took him 2 days to recover..* 3rdly..jux now have a great time eating !! @ CHOMP CHOMP...long time nv eat like a PIG liao...i ate chicken chop...chicken wings...BBQ sting ray...n more!! all my favourite!! hahaha...i tink i'm going to gain 100 kg in one day le lor~ hahaha...jk.. ohh ya...n oso...lastly...coz today n tomolo ..my lesson all end early..!! ahahhaa...tt's the most shiok of all!~
no need read min's blog..jiu chi dao she gonna sae me le..hahaha..coz i nv ans her qns..acty i feel guilty all along...but the pro isss....haha..i dun hav time to even slp..how to blog..soo i decided..to use TODAY...to reply all her qns...lolx..
1.How long will you take to recover frm a heartbrk? n is there a time difference between guys n gals? as in, does it take longer for a gal then a guy?
heartbrk...hmm..let me define it as i'm the one bei shuai diao hor..ahaha..hope u all understand wat i'm typing..lol..mux understand tt..when a person is too full..she cant tink properly..lol.. IF i realli realli realli...like tt person alottt....wholeheartedly..FOR ME lar..i cfm will super sad for a long time..lolx..jux like my previous crush..i took 8+ mths to get over him...n NOW..he still remain a special role in my heart..hahaha...hmm..i tink tis kind of thingy is jian ren jian zhi de lor...sum can tk it v easily..sum mux tk a v long time to get over it.. but i tink hor..ppl..if ur love r/s fail...dun be too sad..in tis whole wide world..sure there is someone there for u de..!soo mux be like me...WAIT !! hahaha...if ur ex dun wan u or wat..is becoz..THEY R STUPID! get up on ur feet..show them ur POWER! hahhaa..i tink it will be great if u set a time limit..like 3 mths? haha...use tis time to cry ur heart out..n settle urself..aft tt ...carry on wif ur LIFE~ time diff ar... i tink both gals n guys r the same lor..they r both humans mar..haha..but MOST of the time...guys can get over it easier..i sae MOST nia..coz gals r more vunerable ma...but ard me..i oso noe abt a few cases ..of guys..v chi qing one..v sad over brkover..
2.how long till u're ready to start another relationship? or rather, wat is an acceptable time period for u to recover n aso, so ppl dun think u're heartless to start another relationship so fast? aso, is there a diff bet guys n gals?
how long ar...if another person tt loves u come lor...haha..*i'm nt tt heng..haha..i wait for sooo longg le~* acceptable time period ar...i tink i ans it le..read the ans part 1..haha.. but abt wat other ppl tink...i gt something to sae...DUN CARE ABT THEM!!! hu the heck is them man!! bleah~ heartless ar...if u r the one hu initiated a brkup hor..den mayb u hav to care abt tt qns..jux like tt bastard...saw him in sch...super bu shuang..soo er xin..jux dun understand y ppl will fall for HIM! irritating~ sth to voice out..ppl...DUN BECOz of loneliness n sadness ...den go engaged into another relationship hor..!! tt's too bad le..~ imagine..u r hurt by someone...den by going into another r/s jux for the sake of it.. aren't u hurting others too? if u cant commit 100% of ur heart to them...den dun get into a r/s.. it hurts..kk? lol. diff b/w guys n gals..nope..dun tink soo baz..i'm nt experienced in it..haha..i'm a newbie..CAI NIAO!~
3.if u truly love someone, u wldn't really care abt his/her past rite? past is past le ma, wat matters is now.. true?
hmmmmmmm........interesting qns... hahaha...something tt i'm once considering abt it..
if u truly love someone..n if his or her PAST is nt tt BAD/horrible/ER XIN afterall...hahha..den i tink ya ..mayb true... but the pro is..u might sae so la...hu can realli do tt? in ur heart..u mind rite.? like for me... in the past ..i might sae..ya i dun mind abt his past..dun mind abt his flaws.. but the truth is..i mind! sighz..i'm bad rite.. in the past...i'm scared tt his enemies will come tio him...scared tt he wun hav a future... scared tt he will rejoin all those bad..thugs? ahaha..nice word to use.. another reason is..i scared mum they all will look down on him...bleah~ ..haha..etc etc etc...ppl u might tink tt ..quite incredible for a sec 3 gal to tink abt it tt much rite..? i tink coz of all tis...tt's y i decided to giv up..lol..hello a sec 3 gal leh..! now looking back..i tink i'm dumb lor.! bleah!~! hate to admit tt...mayb is becoz i dun realli like him tt much baz..tt's y i cant get over his past.. so conclusion..if u realli like him or her vvvv much..of coz~ everything of him/her will seems like heaven to u..haha.. if u mind..den tt means ..nt reali true love baz..or the love is nt tt deep enoff.?
4.how long r u willing to wait for e one u love? how long is too long to expect?
how long ar..hahaha..last time..someone is willing to wait for some gal for 2 yrs..haha..coz tt 'dumb' gal requested him to wait for her aft 'O's finish...yup i tink he managed to keep his promise.. n left aft tt..lolx..coz tt 'dumb' gal dunno how to appreciate lor...hahhaa..but tt is nt the ultimate lar..another example i noe is..6+ yrs? hahhaa...but is dan lian nia lar..poor chap~ as far as i noe..he is still waiting..dunno whether to sae he is dumb or chiqing..mayb both? haha.. too long ar..i tink two yrs is long enoff le..damn selfish lor..to expect others to wait for u.. haha..
and ppl..if u like someone..n someone like u too...pls dun engaged in tis kind of waiting list thingy hor..shi jian bu deng ren de...let the person wait too long..the person will jux leave..dun wait till den ..cai regret!~! JUST DO IT..!! hhaa..
5.if u think it's worth getting into a relationship with someone, wldn't it be worth ur time trying to make it work?
errmmm...tis is a super duper hard ans..i suppose soo baz...esp when the person is the one for u..of coz it is worth it.. dunno wat to sae le haha..unless min is willing to enlighten me abt tis..haha..
ok end of qns n ans session..continue nxt time.~
dreamt @ 7:35 PM
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18/05/04
hey hey! i'm back in here again...tis is reporter llm ..reporting live frm mjc! hahhaa...erpz ..the yr 1 ppl is typing at such great speed man..hahaha..all bz typing out minutes n stuffs like tt...i feel like....LAFFING OUT LOUD!! lol....damn bad...but tt's true wat...c them like tis...like a flashback to me...seems like it is yday tt i jux finish my PW...lol..~
jux now went to canteen n eat...ohhh ya..ppl kinda of curious WHY i still in sch...coz of econ revision programme lar...start @ 3.55 ...SOOO INFLEXIBLE~ sianz... asshole...waste my time..but anyway ..kinda of proud of my self..coz i managed to finish some hw..hahhaa...!! ok...back to the 'canteen' story...
jux went there for chicken rice...dunno y ..no matter how many times i eat...it's still nt delicious to me...mayb is the yin ying still there lor..hahhaa...den saw Kenny n jackey.. hahha...both yr 1 co member...kenny use tt kinda of weirdo looking face n look at me...he dun dare to suan me...coz he cant win me..haha den jackey n his usual LAO NIU...hahaha...i tink the bonding trip on sat ...is successful~ haha...at least we gt interact...hmmm..gtg ...continue ltr..
dreamt @ 3:46 PM
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hmmm...life sux !! sianz...haiz...
yday is a bad day for me....i'm alrdy in a v v v super duper foul mood in the morning...den mr chua ..i suppose his mood is as bad as mine...start to SHOOT us during lect...i dun tink he is now stricter when he is dealing wif us...i tink he is jux plain mean ..sianz.. tt's nt him..! i reali hope tt tis kind of situation wun last long....
my 2.4 km timing ...nt gd...for me ...tt's wat i tink...althot gt pass lar...sianz... mjc soccer team lose...3-2 ...another bad news...mr chua oso behaving is such a mean manner during tutorial....make me sooo pissed tt...i remain slient throt the whole of the lesson....*i tink it dun make a diff baz...coz i dun contribute much for all his lessons..*
pissed lar pissed....still gt thousands n millions of stuffs tt pissed me...damn...nt appropriate to state in here...argh...bye
dreamt @ 12:45 PM
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16/05/04
weirdo dae for me...having fun shooting the juniors..lol...!!!
hello ppl...it's me again...typing @ 2+ hahaha...kinda of crazy...but ya..it's the truth rite..! i'm madd..~
anyway todae is a bonker day for me...lolx..everything seems to be weird ...lol..
today gt hist lect...suppose to meet elsa at 7.30 ..haha but we postponed the meeting time to 8.. ahaha..as u all noe me..i tend to slack when i noe tt i hav extra time to spend...sooo i went searching for sth tt mum wan..den to my horror...elsa msg me she alighting frm bus le! haha...it's 7.50 baz...den sooo shocked dao..soo i v gan chiong...tk my bag...tk keys waterbottle...den when i'm locking the door..den i find out..i forget to bring sth!! hahaha...super impt!!! i forget to wear my shoes!! hahaha..omg..n somemore i stand outside my hse...still tinking wat hav i forget to bring...den eventually when i look at my feet...feel kinda of weird...y i can c my toes..!! hahaha. damn dumb~ -.-
den went to mac n hav brkfast!...hahaha hotcakes is nice...but of coz i hav to pay a high price for it..hahaha...coz i hav to PAY in terms of money n fats...i gonna be SOOO FAT!! hahaha... ok...den suppose to reach sch @ 9...we finish eating at 8.50 ...hahaha..on our way to tk the bus...i screamed!! i lost my bottle!! it's sooo precious to me man!! hahhaa. but heng...false alarm...lolx...it's safely in my hse...*but i thot i gt bring along wif me? o.O* during hist lect...i keep dropping thingy...hahha..
hmmm...today is slacker day for CO...lolx...muscle ache lar...canot play..haha..sooo i be the photographer of the day...find out tt the guys in CO is nt tt dao aft all...abit noisy lar...acty is ALOT...hahaha...can sae ...tis orientation thingy gt work lar...haha...we r on gd terms wif each other...but we cannot be realli gd frens wif them...gt generation gap wif j1 lar...i'm OLD! ...sometimes ...when they tok...i'm like wat the hell r u all toking abt..!?! haha..
jus told judy abt the TM foodcourt thingy...ahaha...i tink the aunties there can form a clan..one buay song...others buay song too! ..aft cca ..we j1 n 2 ...went there to eat..so many ppl..of coz noisy rite..haha...one particular auntie..cum nag n scold us...siao...den she walk away...wif her mouth still cursing us...bleah! she oso keep turning back n diao us...btw...i oso notice...the other aunties ard..oso like super BS like tt...ahhaha...we all of coz walk off lar...coz we r in the wrong *to sae the truth*.. should nt continue sitting there...aft we finish eating mar... but tt auntie oso in the wrong lar...all in the wrong to be exact.!
ok..jux now rewatching winter sonato jux now..haha..both xiang he n minheng r sooo gd!! hahaha..but the pro is...xianghe nt tt gd looking ..so lose to minheng la..lol...he oso abit tiko~ LOL...OK ..its time for me to dae dream..lolx...*howwww gddddd it is ...if i m you zhen......lollll!!!!!!* jk la...lolx..dun puke ppl...
ok gonna slp le...bye,~
dreamt @ 2:14 AM
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13/05/04
ok...it's like 1+ am in the morning le...lol...gd morning peepz...
hav been bz chionging hw ...sae the truth...haven do finish...but suddenly feel like blogging...so blog lor...acty i'm troubled by a comment by somebody...kinda of pissed! hello..i din do anything to irritate tt person lor...tt person jux suddenly shoot me! fine lor...tink abt me soo negatively.. fine!! haizz...m i realli tt bad? sianzzzz....
coz of the comment...i'm been tinking of it...since dunno when...my qns ' m i realli tt bad?' hahaha...sigh!
blogspot upgrade the format of the webby le..haha..so cool!! ermmm...feel damn outcast todae...bleah!!!!! acty i dun mind it too la... save up my saliva ...n oso save up my attempts to strike a conversation~ ...lazy me!! hahaha...in the end..sam offered me his hp...to play puzzle bobble...~
hahaha...yeah yeah erie...i'm ur blog's loyal supporter ... lol.. erie is now swt all over..frm top to toe...lol...sooo cannot get close to her...coz may tio diabetes..!! cannot get close to jiemin too!! hahaha... ppl dun get close to me..coz i'm acidic..corrode u!!
okok...i'm gonna bonker le...still struggling wif my gp essay!
*to someone...hahah..i dun mind it...REALLY!!*
dreamt @ 1:07 AM
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10/05/04
hey hey..i tink i m damn ugly!~! hahaha...nt tt i din notice it long ago..is jux tt...i cant believe tt i m sooo ugly!! alamakz~ sianz...!!! stupid digi cam fault..tk me in such a state...mayb i shld engage in no pic policy again? sianz..haiz...
listening to 'only lonely' now...nice..! AC too! ..lol..
dreamt @ 12:10 AM
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08/05/04
Being frank can be a virtue...but it can oso be a double-edged sword...it can hurt someone w/o u knowing it..
okok...cant resist my blogging temptation...lol... aiya...starting to miss jiemin since yday...noe why? coz of her blog larr...she mention abt how juan emma etc all v sad...i'm like...dots!! to sae the truth...i miss her too...but dun wanna tell her tt...1stly ltr she will either be sad or BHB...haha....2ndly...jux 2 wks mar...i agree wif her...dun need to be soo drama rite...?! but the pro is...aft reading her blog...makes me sad too...damn!!!
hmm...recently jiemin type alot of qns for me to fa hui my GP skills....haha...but i'm jux too bz wif hw n stuffs like tt....sooo sorry cant reply u....but i promise the moment u come back to spore...u will be able to read all my gan xiang kk....!! :)
yday go meet erie ..rabbit hui...kitty qing...n wenxin... half way to pasta mania...saw judy yulan n jr... hahaha... miss they all soo much...esp hui ...aft Os nv c her anymore...*no joke lor!* ...haha...i suppose hui will be able to read my tis entry rite..lol
qing becuming prettier n prettier..!! hahaha...wenxin n jr slim down le...but ...hmmm...jr looks scary...~ lol.... judy change her hairstyle..now look like japan gal...hahaha... misss them all...hope to c them again in the nxt outing...
saw erie bf yday too....n hav a short sms chat wif her...lol...ya he looks like ronnie...his colour his sehx....haha...n i type alot of my own theories let her see...hahaha...all quite crap lor... but she sae i becoming more pro n expert in love le...muahhaha...i noe jing gonna sae PUI rite...lol...
two of my theories...
(1) the current n ur previous bf may look the same...but it do not mean anything at all....it is nt qiao he...they may resemble each other is becoz....they jux fulfil the criteria of 'the boyfren i ur heart' ...
(2) if u really like someone ...his everything including his flaws will seem soo beautiful in ur eyes....soo if u criticise anyone..tis may show tt ...the person is nt the one for u...lol
okok...gonna stop here for the moment...aft co performance...den i blog again....byeee
dreamt @ 11:27 AM
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05/05/04
heyo ppl..miss my entry?! haha..i'm acty in the sch lib ..using the com to type tis...thot is nt the 1st time to do so...but the feeling is still fresh n new..hahaa...hmm...acty i'm typing tis in a rush...dunno i can mk it anot...i only gt 15+ mins to type my entry..hahaha...u tink i can mk it? let's watch
hmmm...let me start wif last thurs hao le... lol...i acty had an eye to eye contact wif menace ~! hahaha.. is like...hao jiu mei you le..thot i tink i dun like him le...but the pro is...my heart still skip a beat when tt happen..lolx...i cant control tt...coz he is sooo handsome...*to me he is la..to jing i dun tink so rite?* haha..dun type until too detailed...if he happen to c tis...i guess he will noe abt it..
okok...den continue wif fri...damn happy when i get back my maths results...lol...giv me a bit more confidence in mi ~ errmm...den went to meet jiemin...hav a great time wif her...!! long time no c her..miss her alott...~ n oso long time no tok to her face to face~long time no chat...etc...lol~ she damn great ..haha...giv me a super long fries for me to eat...haha...she hope tt by eating tt...i will grow taller...haha..i turn i giv her two short ones...haha...hoping tt she will shrink soon...ahhaha~ damn lame rite...hey hey!! long time no hear her lame...n u noe wat...i discovered tt by hearing all her lame stuffs...u will be influence by her...! aft meeting her..i went back to sch for extra maths programme...the tcher damn fan ren...n fast too....! damn pissed wif him....when he ask..'wat is the fastest method to do it?' repeatedly..haha...my mouth jux shoot tis out...'DUN DO!'...haha...hello~ i'm using my normal voice tone to sae tt...haha...but the pro is...the lect rm is damn quiet at tt time...so by the time i realised it...the whole section (where i m sitting..). burst out laffing...haaha...Opps~!
dreamt @ 11:44 AM
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02/05/04
errr..my urge to blog...started frm fri...but den coz tt i'm tooo tired + lazy to blog...i keep suppressing my urge ...ermmm..until todae...acty i gt alots of stuffs to blog abt de...but becoz of my limited memory space in my brain...all those supposed to be memorable de stuffs...shld be all gone by now...except for...my bottle !! n him...hahha...finally at tis moment...i managed to draw a link b/w tt two consecutive incidents...it's all fate baz... errmmm...feel like blogging more...but my human battery is running low...gonna get back to my work...den get to slp ASAP...*hmm..brk a record..i din slp todae...but i slack alot!! * tml blog more...for all those waiting for my proper entry...mux wait le worrr
dreamt @ 10:34 PM
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